I want to believe that someday all of this will make sense. Everything’s a blur for now and I’ve come to terms with the fact that it’s better to trust my sketchpad-turned-journal and the four walls in my room when it comes to airing out my sentiments and the loud “why’s” that are silenced by the big smile I’ve mastered to put on perfectly when dealing with the world outside. There are things that I do not understand right now but I know someday, the pieces will come together. I’m thinking of my current situation as a chapter where I need to be broken to have a breakthrough. I’m on an emotional roller coaster and I’m doing my best to take everything in – pain, joy, laughter, tears, and anger – hoping that I’ll be able to utilize all emotions and come up with a song.