Project 365.2: Day Thirty

IMG_5954“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards.” -Steve Jobs

I want to believe that someday all of this will make sense. Everything’s a blur for now and I’ve come to terms with the fact that it’s better to trust my sketchpad-turned-journal and the four walls in my room when it comes to airing out my sentiments and the loud “why’s” that are silenced by the big smile I’ve mastered to put on perfectly when dealing with the world outside. There are things that I do not understand right now but I know someday, the pieces will come together. I’m thinking of my current situation as a chapter where I need to be broken to have a breakthrough. I’m on an emotional roller coaster and I’m doing my best to take everything in – pain, joy, laughter, tears, and anger – hoping that I’ll be able to utilize all emotions and come up with a song.

Gentle Reminder

From :

Take a step back.  Fucking look at yourself.  You are human.  You are beautiful.  You are so beautiful.  And you can be anything.  You can be everything.  Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friend betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless.  Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control.  Cry when you need to then let go when it’s time.  Don’t hang onto painful memories just because you’re afraid to forget.  Let go of things that are in the past.  Forget things that aren’t worth remembering.  Stop taking things for granted.  Stop taking life for granted.  Live for something.  Live for yourself.  Fall in love.  Fall out of love.  Fall in love.  Fall out of love.  Do this over and over until you know what it is to love someone.  Question things.  Tell people how you really feel.  Sleep under the stars.  Create.  Imagine.  Inspire.  Share something wonderful.  Meet new people.  Make someone’s day.  Follow your dreams.  Live your life to it’s full potential.  Just live, dammit.  Let go of all the horrible things in your life and fucking live.  And one day, when you’re old, look back with no regrets.

At first this smelled like another cheezy “Don’t worry everything’s going to be A-okay” quote.  But then I read it.  And read it again.  It was a great reminder on the dos and don’t of life.  Except for the sleep under the stars part.  I live in Los Angeles.  We don’t have those kind of stars.  So to the person that sent me this, thank you for sharing.  I needed to hear this today.

– Angry


“I don’t know, Em, you’re young, you’re practically a genius, and yet your idea of a good time is treat yourself to a service wash. Well I think you deserve more. You are smart and funny and kind (too kind if you ask me) and by far the cleverest person I know. And you are also a Very Attractive Woman. And yes I do mean ‘sexy’ as well, though I feel a bit sick writing it down. Well I’m not going to scribble it out because it is also true. You’re gorgeous, you old hag, and if I could give you just one gift ever for the rest of your life, it would be this: Confidence. It would be the gift of confidence. Either that or a scented candle.”

-One Day

It’ll Happen

“Kung mahal mo yung babae tsaka mahal mo ang Diyos

Maghahanap ka talaga ng paraan para magkatuluyan kayo

Na everyday makikita mo yung mukha nya, it’s the first thing you see in the morning

If you love God, if you put Him in charge of everything, 


-Paolo Valenciano

Morning Surf


“Sometimes in the morning, when it’s a good surf, I go out there, and I don’t feel like it’s a bad world” – Kary Mullis

(c) Adele Katerina Raya